Listen: when I stopped, I was constantly tested granted, it was probation in my early twenties. When I wanted to snap, I put on muisc, cranked the volume, and let my emotions flow away. Walking helped; I took walks. I’m not religious, but I lead with kindness, a smile, and humility. When your insides feel shaky, like a dropped unopened soda bottle, just smile and politely excuse yourself. Express yourself fully, but stay kind and respectful; don’t yell, be firm. I’m relearning these things. You got this, man. Break away from family when needed.