Once I told my very active father who has given me almost everything that I loved my dead‑beat mother more, even though I hadn't seen her in years,, lol. He was a drunk, but he still cared for his family and never laid a hand on me 😭. Kids are assholes; I'm sorry you’re going through this, but it will pass if you keep open communication, lol. I can tell my dad anything, even about himself, and that’s what I love about our relationship.